I have been praying a lot lately.
But I haven’t been praying a lot of stuff.
I’ve been praying the same stuff over and over again.
And it’s not because I want to repeat myself.
It’s because I feel like I need to repeat myself.
Because I’m worried God isn’t getting it the first time I say it. Or that I’m not saying it right. Or because I have done so much stupid stuff to warrant such a prayer that I feel like I have to repeat myself in order to convince God.
Who in the world do I think I am? Sometimes I embarrass and surprise even myself.
Hebrews 11:6 says, “Now without faith, it is impossible to please God…”
Whenever I repeat myself because I don’t feel like God got it, or that I’m not praying it right or something. Essentially what I’m saying is that I don’t believe God is capable of taking my request and handling it. I’m telling God I don’t believe Him.
With my actions, I’m saying to God, “I doubt you.”
And by God’s very word, I am making it impossible to please my God.
Faith is believing without seeing. So when I put my faith in God I’m trusting Him to be as big as He’s already shown me He is.
Have you seen the sunset?
How about the sky?
That’s God too.
All Him. He made it.
Yeah. He’s made it possible to be presented before God completely blameless of my own sin.
How foolish I’ve been.
God, break me. I trust you. I’m sorry for my sins. Please forgive me. I know You are capable. I give it all to You. In Christ’s Name I pray, Amen.
What wins out in your life? Faith or Doubt?
What can you do about it?